60 DoSH (DAY 9)

Unapologetically awesome time in the presence of the Lord.

My babies have not quit so I refuse to quit.

It's a struggle not to get distracted in church with the different thoughts in my head, MIND I subject you under the obedience of Christ Jesus.

60DoSh - 1 week 1day later

Glad to be here today.

The privilege to be able to worship and glorify your holy name is not to be taken for granted. My babies are always here ready with my hugs. 

That I may know him (Part 3)

I must die daily to the flesh so that the resurrection power of Christ might be made more abundantly manifest in my life.

60DoSh (Day 7)

Thank you Lord for a glorious time in your presence.

I had wondered if I will get rusty over these few months, but today I know for sure that cannot be. With the flood in church, instincts kicked in and I refuse to quit till the auditorium was ready for service thank you Lord.

What a ministration! Lord I need a seed to tie into the prophesy of everlasting mercy in my life. If that be the only legacy I leave for my children, let it be mercy. 

Joyous celebration

60 DoSh (Day 6)

Thank you Lord for keeping me still, had service at the baby parish, glorious to see what the Lord is doing there. Oh what a pleasure to see the hearts of men and women burning for the Lord, am able to set aside my selfish worries and just focus on the author and finisher of my faith.

Awesome

Is it the acting, the dramatization, prophetic words, the songs or instruments. Cannot really say, all I know is that it promises to be an awesome time in the presence of the Lord.

I should know cause I have partaken in this ministration not too long ago.

So make it a date hope to see you there ...Shalom

60 DoSh (Day 5)

Being taken out of the prayer group filled me with dread about today but a phone call last night soothed my soul. 

Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted

60 DoSh Day 4

Sunday service not as bad as it would seem, Lord put the enemy to shame in my life.

Open heavens for today reads that the motive behind every action will be called into question. Where men have perverted the truth and told lies in my name, Father bring them to repentance.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus

Day 3 progresses am a little tense, how am I going to sit through this vigil. Vigils can be quite hectic, I feel bad for my team I won't be able to be of assistance to them.

But the Lords work will always be done for if men are unwillingly, the Lord will raise stones to praise him.

Hope I don't sleep off from being too comfortably sitted. 

Note to self: Put plenty of sweets in bag.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus (Day 2)

I struggled with being at service today, different thoughts run through my mind after all your presence/service is not particularly required. 

Is that why you were always there, to sustain the myth of being needed. Questions that may not have come if not this spiritual exercise. Questions that peel away the physical aspects of religion in a bid to expose the core of my belief.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus

Day 1

Feels strange sitting down in church haven't done that in at least two years.

Mixed feelings run through me, shame, disappointment, anger, failure and pain but hope and peace comes knocking and I know am going to be okay.

Yes let's see when the opportunity to serve is taken away if the joy of salvation will remain, I have to remember I failed the first test must not fail this one. It is your work Lord and if you have destined that I let it be,then it must be for my spiritual growth and I must use it wisely, not grudgingly not in sorrow.

Prayer Lessness

Over the course of knowing and serving God, the Holy Spirit has revealed so much as I have learnt to first crawl and then walk the path of salvation. 

From time to time I hope to share these lessons with you.

A Life devoid of prayers is a landing pad for evil.

One sure move by the enemy to enable evil access the life of a child of God is to first weaken their prayer life.

When you cannot seem to get alone time with God, so busy in the morning or too tired at night, then sometime is definitely wrong. Wake up! Wake up from your spiritual slumber and fight Matt 26:40-41.

Fight for your soul is at stake.

Pray Until Something Happens (PUSH)

It seemed like the convention ground children of God were walking towards the new auditorium. A man highlighted from a car parked way ahead, he opened the boot of the car and took out vile creatures and set them on the road. A snake and alligator began to tussle and panic issued as everyone ran back in fear.

Twice the crowd tried to go forward each time someone screamed snake and this sent people running back. Interestingly neither the snake or the alligator bit anyone but served as hindrances.

Let us pray

Num 22:22 That the Lord should kindle his anger against every hindrance to our Amen 

2Pet 2:4  Decree that the Lord arrest every monitoring and hindering spirit that has been unleashed upon your progress and return them back to the pit of hell.

Call on the fire of the Holy Ghost to consume every physical and spiritual blockage that has been set up against you fulfilling destiny.

Psalm 70:2 Let them be ashamed and confounded that seek after my soul: let them be turned backward, and put to confusion, that desire my hurt.

DISAPPOINTED

The shame of disappointment
knowing how much you just hurt your family and loved ones
People that you truly cared about, who believed and trusted in your capabilities
You let them, yourself and most importantly your maker down.

Yes your words, and actions was a shock and huge disappointment.
You see the anxiety, the pain, and uncertainty in the eyes of the ones that trusted you.
These ones you have to work hard to regain their trust.
You also confirmed the suspicions of those that have initially doubted your sincerity.

You sense the condemnation, tactical withdrawal and negativity in their words.
These ones you may choose to avoid, they never believed in you in the first place

Good Mother

What does it take to have a baby

To have sex with no protection

To persevere through pain to birth life

To instinctively respond to the needs of another

The gods are not to be blamed

You never take out time to call me and when I do you never pick up the phone

You only want to see me when its convenient for you 

On rare days spread miles apart

Yet you wonder why we seem to be drifting apart