60 DoSH (Day 11)

I didn't sleep much last night, I know the Lord is at work but am a little apprehensive as to how he is going to accomplish it. Trust in him Joyce, he has never failed you. 

Still feels slightly different going to church on Sunday, I begin to doubt if I will ever shake off this feeling. 
Note to self: Courage is not the absence of fear but the ability to carry on despite fear. 

Got to keep keeping on.

LOVE NEVER FAILS

Matthew 26:34-35 KJV

[34] Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, That this night, before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice.

[35] Peter said unto him, Though I should die with thee, yet will I not deny thee. Likewise also said all the disciples. 

Peter boasted in the flesh (self effort), hours later he does what he swore not to.

60 DoSH (Day 10)

Thank you Lord three days of not being in my parish feels like three weeks so good to be here.

As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man so are children of the youth Psalm 127:4

Thank you Lord for these little ones, may your blessings abide with them.

Father my arrows will never be a source of disgrace in my family, they are for signs and wonders.

De ja vu

So am in the house, feels strange to be inside after these months. 

I can't help but wonder before things were different I would have been at the house early to help in the planing. 

So much damage, but am at peace because beauty sometimes springs up from ugly scenarios.

A feeling of de ja vu, my baby is happy to be see me, happy to see her too. 

Movie time I watch.

60 DoSH (DAY 9)

Unapologetically awesome time in the presence of the Lord.

My babies have not quit so I refuse to quit.

It's a struggle not to get distracted in church with the different thoughts in my head, MIND I subject you under the obedience of Christ Jesus.

60DoSh - 1 week 1day later

Glad to be here today.

The privilege to be able to worship and glorify your holy name is not to be taken for granted. My babies are always here ready with my hugs. 

That I may know him (Part 3)

I must die daily to the flesh so that the resurrection power of Christ might be made more abundantly manifest in my life.

60DoSh (Day 7)

Thank you Lord for a glorious time in your presence.

I had wondered if I will get rusty over these few months, but today I know for sure that cannot be. With the flood in church, instincts kicked in and I refuse to quit till the auditorium was ready for service thank you Lord.

What a ministration! Lord I need a seed to tie into the prophesy of everlasting mercy in my life. If that be the only legacy I leave for my children, let it be mercy. 

Joyous celebration

60 DoSh (Day 6)

Thank you Lord for keeping me still, had service at the baby parish, glorious to see what the Lord is doing there. Oh what a pleasure to see the hearts of men and women burning for the Lord, am able to set aside my selfish worries and just focus on the author and finisher of my faith.

Awesome

Is it the acting, the dramatization, prophetic words, the songs or instruments. Cannot really say, all I know is that it promises to be an awesome time in the presence of the Lord.

I should know cause I have partaken in this ministration not too long ago.

So make it a date hope to see you there ...Shalom

60 DoSh (Day 5)

Being taken out of the prayer group filled me with dread about today but a phone call last night soothed my soul. 

Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted

60 DoSh Day 4

Sunday service not as bad as it would seem, Lord put the enemy to shame in my life.

Open heavens for today reads that the motive behind every action will be called into question. Where men have perverted the truth and told lies in my name, Father bring them to repentance.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus

Day 3 progresses am a little tense, how am I going to sit through this vigil. Vigils can be quite hectic, I feel bad for my team I won't be able to be of assistance to them.

But the Lords work will always be done for if men are unwillingly, the Lord will raise stones to praise him.

Hope I don't sleep off from being too comfortably sitted. 

Note to self: Put plenty of sweets in bag.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus (Day 2)

I struggled with being at service today, different thoughts run through my mind after all your presence/service is not particularly required. 

Is that why you were always there, to sustain the myth of being needed. Questions that may not have come if not this spiritual exercise. Questions that peel away the physical aspects of religion in a bid to expose the core of my belief.

60 Days of Spiritual hiatus

Day 1

Feels strange sitting down in church haven't done that in at least two years.

Mixed feelings run through me, shame, disappointment, anger, failure and pain but hope and peace comes knocking and I know am going to be okay.

Yes let's see when the opportunity to serve is taken away if the joy of salvation will remain, I have to remember I failed the first test must not fail this one. It is your work Lord and if you have destined that I let it be,then it must be for my spiritual growth and I must use it wisely, not grudgingly not in sorrow.

Prayer Lessness

Over the course of knowing and serving God, the Holy Spirit has revealed so much as I have learnt to first crawl and then walk the path of salvation. 

From time to time I hope to share these lessons with you.

A Life devoid of prayers is a landing pad for evil.

One sure move by the enemy to enable evil access the life of a child of God is to first weaken their prayer life.

When you cannot seem to get alone time with God, so busy in the morning or too tired at night, then sometime is definitely wrong. Wake up! Wake up from your spiritual slumber and fight Matt 26:40-41.

Fight for your soul is at stake.